In June of 2013, I lost the ability to type. My ALS is progressing (that is a bad thing). I have also lost the ability to raise my arms. And to add to the entertainment package, my speech is also deteriorating.
I basically wanted to give up . . . and I did. What is the use of going on. It is obvious that I am worthless. So I laid in bed and felt sorry for myself. I was justified in that feeling and no one was going to tell me anything to change my mind. I was having a grand old time with my pity party.
Fast forward to New Year's day, a day when our family sits around the table and makes New Year's goals. At this moment, my family asked me what I was planning on doing. I wanted to lay down and die, that was my goal. But I couldn't do that. So instead I decided to act bigger than I felt. You know, fake it 'til you make it.
So I thought about some goals and I decided that it would be a good idea to update my blog, but how? And then a Beatle's song came to mind. "I get by with a little help from my friends."
I basically wanted to give up . . . and I did. What is the use of going on. It is obvious that I am worthless. So I laid in bed and felt sorry for myself. I was justified in that feeling and no one was going to tell me anything to change my mind. I was having a grand old time with my pity party.
Fast forward to New Year's day, a day when our family sits around the table and makes New Year's goals. At this moment, my family asked me what I was planning on doing. I wanted to lay down and die, that was my goal. But I couldn't do that. So instead I decided to act bigger than I felt. You know, fake it 'til you make it.
So I thought about some goals and I decided that it would be a good idea to update my blog, but how? And then a Beatle's song came to mind. "I get by with a little help from my friends."
I have a dear friend that comes to visit me every Monday. Her name is Lori. (That is Laura in the picture, not Lori, but you get the idea). She is the one who is typing this for me, putting up with my slurred speech and her own computer challenges. We make a perfect pair. Testing each other's patience and that is perfect.
So Lori and I will keep blogging every week. No more feeling sorry for myself, no more laying down and dying. I am reminded that if I am not dead then I am not done. It also gives Lori and I an opportunity to have some fun with each other and enjoy each other's company.
I hope that this inspires you. You may want to give up or you may want to quit, but trust me, God has a plan for you.
As for me: I'm back!
So Lori and I will keep blogging every week. No more feeling sorry for myself, no more laying down and dying. I am reminded that if I am not dead then I am not done. It also gives Lori and I an opportunity to have some fun with each other and enjoy each other's company.
I hope that this inspires you. You may want to give up or you may want to quit, but trust me, God has a plan for you.
As for me: I'm back!
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